updatin blog

wOW...cant imagine that i stopped blog 4 few month....

erhmmmmmmmm...........juz kinda bzy wit my sdties+no internet connection at my new hse which is at Sek17(near campus)+i kinda lazy 2 blog...n nw i bck...LOL

newayz my life gettin tougher nwdayz....

cant think wer m i suppose 2 do my degree...

mmu??segi??o government uni??

TOTALLY CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!

bt 4 sure nt UTAR!!!! I HATE IT 2 D MAX!!!!

itz enuf 4 me 2 suffer in my foundation...

i duwan 2 bring tiz 2 my degree....

n yeah...drivin test...im kinda prepare 4 it...n test on 23dec...cant wait 2 take my license...

well....as most of them noe tiz blog is dedicated 2 sum1 dat i love...bt i seldom talk bout him...

eermmm.....i stil cant take away him frm my mind n heart....i stil cant stop thinkin bout him....well nwdayz i less contact him dy....coz of sum reasons....n deep down of my heart he stil there....miz u so much...

random

=)
i alrdy reach bloggin mur thn 50...wuwuwuwu
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would lk 2 thnx lidi 2 post a blog 4 me...im reali tired 2dy.....+ lazy.....hvin my monthly frn....
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i wan 2 b myslf....miss my frnz at kl....lol
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smile alwiz =D

most expensive cars in d world (top 10 lists)

1. Bugatti Veyron $1,700,000. This is by far the most expensive street legal car available on the market today. It is the fastest accelerating car reaching 0-60 in 2.6 seconds. It claims to be the fastest car with a top speed of 253 mph+. However, the title for the fastest car goes to the SSC Ultimate Aero which exceed 253 mph pushing this car to 2nd place for the fastest car.

2. Lamborghini Reventon $1,600,000. The most powerful and the most expensive Lamborghini ever built is the second on the list. It takes 3.3 seconds to reach 60 mph and it has a top speed of 211 mph. Its rarity (limited to 20) and slick design are the reasons why it is so expensive and costly to own.
3. McLaren F1 $970,000. In 1994, the McLaren F1 was the fastest and most expensive car. Even though it was built 15 years ago, it has an unbelievable top speed of 240 mph and reaching 60 mph in 3.2 seconds. Even as of today, the McLaren F1 is still top on the list and it outperformed many other supercars.

4. Ferrari Enzo $670,000. The most known supercar ever built. The Enzo has a top speed of 217 mph and reaching 60 mph in 3.4 seconds. Only 400 units were produced and it is currently being sold for over $1,000,000 at auctions.

5. Pagani Zonda C12 F $667,321. Produced by a small independent company in Italy, the Pagani Zonda C12 F is the 5th fastest car in the world. It promises to delivery a top speed of 215 mph+ and it can reach 0-60 in 3.5 seconds.

6. SSC Ultimate Aero $654,400. Don't let the price tag fool you, the 6th most expensive car is actually the fastest street legal car in the world with a top speed of 257 mph+ and reaching 0-60 in 2.7 seconds. This baby cost nearly half as much as the Bugatti Veyron, yet has enough power to top the most expensive car in a speed race. It is estimated that only 25 of this exact model will ever be produced.

7. Saleen S7 Twin Turbo $555,000. The first true American production certified supercar, this cowboy is also rank 3rd for the fastest car in the world. It has a top speed of 248 mph+ and it can reach 0-60 in 3.2 seconds. If you are a true American patriot, you can be proud to show off this car.

8. Koenigsegg CCX $545,568. Swedish made, the Koenigsegg is fighting hard to become the fastest car in the world. Currently, it is the 4th fastest car in the world with a top speed of 245 mph+, the car manufacture Koenigsegg is not giving up and will continue to try and produce the fastest car. Good luck with that!

9. Mercedes Benz SLR McLaren Roadster $495,000. A GT supercar, the SLR McLaren is the fastest automatic transmission car in the world with a top speed of 206 mph+ and reaching 60 mph in 3.8 seconds. It is a luxurious convertible with a really powerful engine, which results in outstanding performances and style.

10. Porsche Carrera GT $440,000. A supercar with dynamic stability control and a top speed of 205 mph+ and it can reach 0-60 in 3.9 seconds. The Porsche Carrera GT applies the absolute calibers of a true racing car to offer an unprecedented driving feeling on the road.

results out!!!

i wuz damn nervous wen my frn sms me n tel me dat results is out!!! well...i wuz confidence dat i wil passed all my subs....bt i lose of lil bit confidence dat my cgpa is gonna b low.... thn tiz mornin i brought my lappy 2 my mum n tellin her dat my results is out...she said juz pray n open it...thn i wuz surprise dt i passed all my subjects...bt low cgpa....haizzz!!!! n nw i nid 1 bck 2 kl 2 repeat another 2 subjects....sigh!!! im tired of doin foundation..... y im alwiz so unlucky??? cnnt go through my studies,my life also lk nt stable all d tym..... btw...i thanked God 4 answerin my prayers...thank u jesus...n i thnked my parents 2...love them alwiz....

bitter at d same tym sweet

yesterday i dunno wad happen 2 my mum she screw me 2 d max...n make me cry lk hell....i cant imagine d whole dy i wuz thinkin bout wad she said 2 me n cry..maybe itz my fault aso bt she shouldn't use d words 2 me...itz hurt me alot...she tellin me dat im satyin at hum gvin her alot of finacial prob???WTH??? n i reali cnnt take it...so i hv show my face 2 evry1...my dad,lydia,my mum, n my sis all....well...thn tiz wuz happen..my mum gt a new job ...which is v r goin 2 open new COSWAY stokis at kuala pilah...so d owner is my mum....she wuz vry hapily tellin my dad n me...i juz ignore her....*i feel bad* thn my dad ask me wad is goin on n i complain evrytin 2 my dad...dad gt angry n he screwed mum...*i reali feel guilty* i shouldnt do dat....frm dat momment i cn c hw lovin n caring is my parents....although thy scold me thy stil my parents...most of d teen nwdayz listenin 2 d parents advice is juz lk eating bitter gourd...bt trust me 1day u gonna regret 4tiz...n later on...i tok bck 2 my mum n givin her sum ideas 2hw 2 take over d stokis....btw.... MY PARENTS IS MY BESTIES 4EVER!!! =)

driving....driving....driving....

well im gettin pro in driving....kikiki....im attendin driving classes for almost 2weeks...n nex month in goin 4 test....cool...my driving skool teacher "mr.Wong"...teachin me vry well...bt he talks alot...sigh!~!...
newayz 2morrow i gt 2 learn parkin all....
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at hum as usual wake up late"gt screw by my mum".....
n take car n learn drive....my mum gt scared wen i parked d car.....hahahahaha....
i told her im a pro learner...so no worries...bluek!!!
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at hum i gt nuthin 2 do....bored!!!bored!!!bored!!!
well as usual watch hindi dramas...n tel d story 2 my aunties...n yeah evryday need 2 sweep d hse n mop d hse...well im takin over my idiot sis"stef" work!!!!arghhhhhhh....nvm i juz pity her coz of her xam...im vry gud hearted...

blogin

ow such a long tym i nvr blog....
newayz coz i din hv any things happen...
n my life gettin bored nwdyz...
so i dun feel to blog btw....
so aftr tiz i think i muz make my life happenin....
haizzzzz....
i tried of evrytin arnd me...
evrytin is lk predictable...
lk i noe wad is goin 2 happen nex....
i reli dunno wad im talkin bout...
bt i juz crap...

true n sad love....<3

I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you

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Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. They're right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you.

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I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more.

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I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?

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The worst way to love someone is to sit next to them, knowing they don't love you back.

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frnship..=(

did u noe d meanin of frnship???

frnship is a relationship dat between person 2 person 2 share thy happiness and sadness togather...

even i cn sacrifice my life 4 my frnz...bt i wuz totally ignore by them!!!
feel so hurtin n pain!!!
thy cn 4get aftr evry1 IN RELATIONSHIP....

i love them alot...even i sacrifice my love 4 them....4 me my frn is important thn bf...bt evrytin is changed nw....well...aftr tiz i dun gv a damn bout anytin...
bt i stil love them alot...
frnship 4ever..=)

love & life quotes

How can you tell the sun not to shine, when clouds exist. How can ask leaves not to fall when wind exists. How can you tell me not to fall in love when you exist.

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When I say I love you. You say you don't deserve it. When I say I need you . You say I deserve someone better, When I say my life is better with you. You say I don't know any better. But when I kiss you, you say I love you, When I have to go, you say I need you. When I am with you, you know, that there is no better feeling then our love coming together and that is something we both deserve.

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If God is the DJ, then Life is the dance floor; Love is the rhythm, and You are the music

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Life is filled with happiness, sadness, tears, smiles, laughter and other emotions but when life gets you down, just be strong about it and keep your head up high and have faith in all things in life. Always remember: God is at your side, always.

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To be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart; a heart that's aching to see you smile again.

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Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

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Why is it that we love the ones who ignore us and ignore the ones who love us?

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If you love somebody then tell them how you feel dont be scared of their reaction or rejection life is too short. you should take a chance and if things dont work out as you plan dont worry cuz life moves on and true love will be waiting for you again...

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If love is not worth waiting for, it's not worth having

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people will tell you to move on and when the time comes that you cannot you are truly in love

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Love me for a second, and I will make that second last a lifetime

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You told me I am a child, I know I am not. I know that one day you will miss this child who loved you a lot.

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Don't just love him, but show him.

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I doesnt noe y i choose tiz quotes...itz juz feel lk wad is goin on 2 me....n is 100% true....i wan HE 2 read tiz...miz u alot

frnz day out..

ystdy i n my beloved junior(kinesh, thiben, ram, archu, misha, rubz & kishen) which all r same clz wit me, went out 4 muv..

guess wad muv v watched????

jeng...

jeng...

jeng...

G.I. JOE...

1st tym in my life i watched d same movie..TWICE!!

if my mum noe bout tiz...kena la me!!!

hahaxxx..... (chris behave)

thiben and kinesh was damn funny....n thy lk 2 bully me 2 d max..

ram, archu,rubz misha,n the others(sori 4 nvr mentioned d name) wuz aso d same good frnz 4 me...

seriously im hvin fun wif all of them...

reali appreciate 2 hv a frnz lk them...

gonna miz u guyz lk hell....

inspiration words...=)

G.I JOE

Aftr so long, last Sun I, lydia n grace checi went 2 midvalley watched "G.I Joes"..

itz wuz a great n awesome movie...althought im hvin pms i stil enjoy d movie..."itz 2 thumbs up"

dedicate 2 u my dear...=)

i dedicate 2 u justin..

i doesn't noe til nw dat u gt feelin 4 me o nt??

bt i do...

i noe im so stuborn,

i duno hw 2 change myself,

it'z me..dat alwiz b d same...

even aftr i gt u aso d same christina 4 u...

nt oni dat if i gt ur love...ur reali "gifted by GOD 4 me"...

i noe itz reali hard 2 do so...

im waitin 4 u...

miss u alot =)

p/s: i hope u wont gt angry 4 tiz...n yeah sori 4 steali ur pic xD

st.anne feast

23/7 -26/7

hvin st.anne feast at BM, dat evryear i n my family joinin tiz feast...bt tiz wuz d first tym i wuz so damn hapi 2 go tiz feast...

1st reason:
i gonna meet my beloved cute little aunt..

2nd reason:
might be meet wit justin...guess wad???
jeng...

jeng...

jeng...

i met him ter...nt 1nce bt mur thn 3 tym...
althought itz damn crowded v manage 2 meet each other without any expectation....
itz reali a surprise...
n i thanked GOD 4 answerin my prayer..."HE reali great"

3rd reason:
i met unknown ppl...dat noe me...kewl!! i couldnt regonize any1...lolx...
n yeah met laura...hapi 4 her...she luk different nw...=)

4th reason:
went 2 tambun 4 dinner...itz a seafood restaurant..n "floatin restaurant"lolx...BM nt bad...=p
haha...reali miz nisha alot...hv a great days wit her n her fly...hope c her soon...

leavin 2 st.anne feast

im goin st. anne 2dy...wuwuwu...

cant wait 2 c my little aunt (nishatine)

n i missed my clz 4 2dayz...n of course reali missed my collegues...sigh!!

single / in relationship???

being single is mur better o being in relationship??
i feel nw..being single is more better thn in relationship
althought i love him madly...aftr i think bout my life...i shud thanked him...
bt in deep down my heart ur stil ter...
ur d 1 dat no 1 can abolished it....
for nw...my study,family n frns is more important...
mayb 1 day u wil b standin infront of me, n ask me wil u be mine???
i smile n answer "definitely i do....."
i would nt be hurt ur feelin lk u did 2 me...
:p
"holy shit wad m i crapin"
but wad m i tellin is goin 2 happen 1day....im waitin 4 it...
sure most of them thinkin im mad..crazy...stupid...dumb...n watever...
but i gt hope,confident,trust that he wil turn bck 2 me 1dy...
n most important things is GOD..he wit me alwiz n answerin my prayers all...

confused :s

im CONfuSED :s...
who is justin YUGANish???
is dat he is d 1 i hunt 4???
arrghhh....wanna release frm tiz confusion!!!!!!!!!
i noe sum stupid shit goin on wit tiz name......
i wont gv up til find tiz fello....

family gaterings...

last weekends my family hvin a family gaterin 2 church 4 pluckin rambutans and mangosteen.. my uncle n his family wuz cum down juz 4 local fruit frm kuantan...so v reali hv fun wif them...while on the nex day,my beloved grandaunt, hvin aher 50th bdy in restaurant wif all my other families menber....i reali enjoy hangout wif my family throught tiz weekends...=)

p/s:
*dats alot of pixie wanna uploaded...sori i abit lazy so ppl browser my fb n luk 4 d pic... =)

prayer during examination..*study &pray*

O God, give me your help

In this examination time.
Keep me from being nervous

And keep me calm,

So that I will be ableTo do my best.
If I am not prepared,I have no excuse.

If I am prepared,And if I have done my best,

Give me the calm and

The freedom from nerves

I need to do well
This I ask for your love’s sake, Amen.
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O God, help me at my examination today

To remember the things which I have

Learned and studied.
Help me to remember well

And to think clearly.
Help me not to be so nervous

And excited that I will not do

Myself justice,and keep me

Calm and clear-headed.
Help me to try my hardest

And to do my best.

This I ask for your love’s sake, Amen

a student prayer

* i dedicate this prayer to all my frenz*

A STUDENT'S PRAYER
Loving Father,

I stand before You in the midst of confusion and complexities of life.

My future sometimes seems distant and unknown.

Give me, O Lord, the vision to see the path You set before me.

Grant me the courage to follow Your way,

that through the gifts and talents You have given me,

I may bring Yourlife and Your love to others.

I ask this through Jesus, Your Son and my Brother. Amen

A Student's Prayer
Open my mind to your grace,

O Lord, as I begin my study today.

You are the source of all wisdom and truth:

so guide me along the right path

that I may persevere in my studies and scholarship.

May I learn well what I need to know;

may I understand what I need to learn;

may I remember what I need to explain.

Give to my efforts the success you would have for them,

O Lord, so that I may use wisely the knowledge

I acquire and thus live contentedly in your love and the service of my neighbour;

and in due time, may I receive by your grace,

the eternal reward you have prepared for me.

I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

vry sad day...

im vry sad 4 lydia...actuali v wanted 2 go church 4 a concert "made in love" bt juz few hours she just cm 2 bri plc 2 hang out n go 2 church ltr...tiz wuz happen n i make her pist...she dun lk smokin..n ter wuz 2 person wuz smokin which is amos n arsh...itz make her face change n luk pale..she cancel 2 go church and she went bck hum..she nvr think bout hw i feel...im seriously down coz of her...i duno hw 2 explain her....although she smoke, as a frn she good 2 us...n i reali would lk 2 appologize 2 u lydia...i duno wad 2 do 2 make u hapi...im sori 2 make u sad and pist...n i aso understand hw u feel.....plz try 2 understnd me...althoght im wif them i will never follow their footsteps...im sorie lydia....i cnnt c ur face so sad...im seriously so sorie..

split it out...

wen last tues i wuz stayin wif bri, i plan 2 spilt eveytin 2 justin..so i juz waited 4 him 2 on9.

guess wad?? he aso on9...so i start d convo normal, which bri start 1st..thn i cont 2 chat...while as usual..thn i tell him dat i cnnt 4get him..guess wad he said...he dun hv d love feelin at all...*damn weirdo*...wen ask him 4 a chance...haha..bt i feel i over do it....bri wuz got pissed aftr she c my face..coz i cry aftr i chat wif him...he seriously dun understnd my feelin...y guyz r like dat???????? i wuz love him mur thn 1 yr *i guess* and im stil luv him alot...he juz scared tat wen i couple up wif him oni thing i cn get is HURT...bt justin truust me o nt ...1dy u wil approach 2 me...mayb itz 2 late 4 me dy...bt i wont hurt u wad u did 2 me...im sorie 2 said!! n bri luv u alot...i hapi 2 get a frn lk u...

the stupid thing is, i did alot of stuff is juz 2 get u...bt u nvr relize wad m i doin o u juz dun gv a damn bout it...its realy hurtin justin...whenever i think bout tiz...

misunderstandin :(

last tuesday i wuz hvin clz till 5..so i plan 2 put up a nite at bri plc...while i wuz takin nap, lydia wuz sms me askin me wheather im cumin bck hum o nt...bt a dy b4 i alrdy inform her tat i wil stayin at bri's plc...i nvr realize she d 1 sms me...coz i wuz vry tired n couldnt woke up 2 reply d msg...thn arnd 7.30 i rply her...bt she rply me damn rude...i duno y?? thn i guess she complain tiz 2 her mum....n her mum tell my mum dat i leave her alone at hum. i duno y she nvr understnd my situation...i wuz vry tired travelin up n down...n guess wad.. she nt talkin 2 me wen i wen bck hum...nt even a 'hi" aso...wad m i suppose 2 do?? i alwiz treat her as my sis...i nvr do bad 2 her...whenevr i cook food 4 me, i aso wil cook 4 her...i nr treat her as my frn...i treat her mur thn a frn...newayz aftr tiz i duno wad 2 tel...i juz move on as usual...i noe itz nt my fault...newayz if my fault aso i would like 2 said sori 2 her...

" im sori lydia"

horrible memories!!

hey HAWT news i got my RESULTS!!!!!

guess wad i fail again!!!!

damn disapointed...

hv 2 do more thn 4 subjects...HAIZ!!

lifez

aftr so long i start 2 blogin...due 2 my sem break i dead in on9...lolx*4get bout my eng*

ter is so many stuff happen during my sem break...

1. i went 2 cyber aftr my pyscho xam..which is on 29 april...d main thin i went ter is 2 meet up wit justin...bt at last i nvr meet him at all...n d 2nd thing is bring laura n bri 2 ma plc n celebrate st.joseph feast...i reali enjoy it althoght v r damn tired..bt im disppoint wit wad justin did 2 me.on d 30th april v r headin 2 kp(royal town)..keke..ter is seriously was a bad luck 2 us.1st, no transport frm cyber 2 srmb.then,lack of cash.next,cab brokedown while on d way 2 serdang ktm.later on, crowd in ktm,hv 2 stand d whole journey.futher more, i missed my kp bus..coz v reach late...haiz!!thanked god finally, my bro cum n fetch us frm srmb..at last v reach hum at 11.30pm..sigh!!hum sweet hum^^
2. i goin 2 hv my license...huhuhuhu...im so hapi n yeah i choose my car new color...juz cant wait 2 c d car!!!
3. d funniest part, i went 2 karate clz..it damn tiring n im dead aftr d clz..itz reali funny wen i start 2 fight...i kept on laughin wen start clz..my master(my bro) warnin me alot of tym..n yeah i against d rules!!im d worse student in d clz coz of my master is my bro...hahahahaha^^
4. durin y sem break i didnt contact justin 4 nearly 3 weeks dy..nt even a sms o else...i reali missed him so much...actuali i purposly doin tiz...n i hv a big plan..which is im changin my course n university..d uni i planed 2 go is mmu either limkokwing..d chances goin mmu is higher thn goin limkokwing.n im goin 2 do media innovation.if i reali wantd 2 go ter..d 1st thing i would nt tel justin tat i wil b stdy ter.i duwan tel him coz i duwan he 2 feel tat i chasin 4 him..bt yeah i stil love him..i stil hv confident tat 1dy he wil cm n propose 2 me..wad i did 2 him..tat shud b d day i waited 2 feedbck him!!!*nt revenge* i hope he wil understnd it soon.

althought watever happen, 1 thing v must learn 2 move on!!!

holy week..

wen it wuz holy week which is d last week of our fastin, i face alot of problem.tat i nver face b4

* my bro n sis wuz met ACCIDENT...*

d worse part wuz no 1 inform me..coz i gt emotional vry fast..n aftr i knew it i cant wait 2 go bck hum...cuz of my PYSCHO paper...i gt BARRED..i nid 2 attend meetin wif my lecturer d nex day...everytin wuz goin wrong...d oni thing i cn do is PRAY...PRAY...& ...PRAY...
n yeah b4 i end tiz i would lk 2 thanks my beloved frns BRI, LAURA n NANTHIS which calm me down whole nite coz thinkin bout my sibilings...i reali miised them alot...n yeah d main person b4 i forgt.. thanks JUsTIN...d words tat he said "pray 4 them"...^^..(i juz luv it alot)...

*My PSYCHO paper*

it wuz good friday, i nid 2 gobck hum n c my sis n bro..n yeah more important things is nid 2 attend gud friday service...guess wad??
i missed d service coz of pyscho paper...damn screwed up til i shout 2 my frns n threw every stuff in my hand...n i wuz cryin coz i cant find d lecturer who goin 2 interview me...at last i pray ter is oni chance 4 me...guess wad??
mis melissa interview me..im so happy n i tel d reason y i nvr attend clz properly...i think she understand my situation...thanx 2 ms mel...n n of course THANK YOU JESUS...

P/S my sis n bro wuz safe frm d accident...they are fine nw..n i gt unbarred 4 my pyscho paper..n once again...

thank u jesus

i love u alot...

damn depression:(

tiz few day i feel damn screwed up..coz d major prob i gt barred 4 1 sub

PSYCHO!!!!!

thn i cnnt go bck home 4 holy thursday which is 2dy...

y god alwiz gv me alot of test..

i hope i will over my test n go bck 2 my family..

i hate kl 2 d MAX!!!!

especially my UNI!!

i hope i goin 2 transfer my degree 2 another uni..

n i dun feel wanna gv trouble 4 my parents..

since i born, i kept on givin them alot of troublesome..

nt a gladness 4 them..

y m i alwiz doin tiz 2 them???

i hope i gt unbarred 4 tiz sub..

n leave kl soon....:(

IM LUCKY 2 HAVE A PARENTS LIKE THEM...
i love u appa & amma...

normal day..lifeless=)

since 2dy 2nd april...ystdy quiet gempak..coz of "APRIL FOOL"

i fool d 1st person my bestie:"lydia" mornin itself aftr woke frm bed stright went 2 her room n fool her...haha*evil laugh*
thn went 2 uni i kena pula wif bri n feedbck her...lolx...totaly lifeless!!!
Hawt story: i hv a junior which is exactly luk like Justin...98% EXACTLY like him...n yea he seriously killin me..d luk, size,bt nt height...he taller thn justin...JUSTIN SHAWTY!!keke =p n of course justin luk more handsome lolx!! if he read tiz sure d face turn red..keke=p

rehab

From Rihanna's new album,Good Girl Gone Bad)
Baby babyWhen we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's deadI feel so empty and hollow
And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blameAnd now I feel like....oh!
You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab'Cause baby you're my disease
Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept (?)
You'd do anything for the one you love
'Cause anytime that you needed me I
'd be thereIt's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is that you was using me
In a different way than I was using you
But now that I know it's not meant to be
I gotta go, I gotta ean myself off of you
And I'll never give myself to another the way
I gave it to youYou don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame'Cause now I feel like....oh!
You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it'
Cause now I'm using like I bleed
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab'Cause baby you're my disease
Now ladies gimme that...
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh
Now gimme that...Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh
My ladies gimme that...Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh
Now gimme that...Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohhOh!
You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it'
Cause now I'm using like I bleed
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab'Cause baby you're my disease

kinda true bout me n justin...

:) & :(

after so long blogin...

damn bowink...

mingle my single life...

but sumtym feel lonely...like no 1 care bout me..:"(

ermm...life goin on sucks!!!

stil kept on thinkin bout justin...

n yea wont 4get bout 1 fri tat wen out wif so called "crazy gang"
v drink, hauntin frm 12.30am til 7.30am...damn cool....
cant 4get d moment wif bri, arsh,milo,sheki,resh,rav,laura,,n nesh....

i juz missed evry sec tat i enjoy wif them...

miss them alot!!

calm me down...

- JuZz - just sent you a nudge.

- JuZz - says:
hey
waddup???
-chriz- says:
- JuZz - says:
yeah
-chriz- says:
sori 4 late
- JuZz - says:
itz ok
-chriz- says:
hye y u dun wan commit in any relationship 4 nw
- JuZz - says:
cz i dun wana gt tied down
i dun feel like gettin into any relation nw
relationship*
bsides im nt de serious kinda guy la
-chriz- says:
serious mean in which way
- JuZz - says:
serious in relationship
-chriz- says:
ok
yeah is ur life i cnnt force u also lar
- JuZz - says:
hmmm.....ok
-chriz- says:
so after tiz u wont wil b in relationship ar
- JuZz - says:
ermmm......duno la
dat 1 i duno
bt 4 nw i dun feel like it
-chriz- says:
ok...
- JuZz - says:
im reli sori
k
-chriz- says:
hye itz k...
- JuZz - says:
bsides u r a nice gurl
im sure u cn find sum1 else beta than me
sum1 dat luvs u
-chriz- says:
but didnt u say dat i wont deserve a better guy den me.
wats dat suppose to mean
- JuZz - says:
huh???
wen i said dat la????
-chriz- says:
wen i confess 2 u ...u said d words lar
- JuZz - says:
i said u deserve a beta guy then me
-chriz- says:
- JuZz - says:
neva mind la
4gt it
-chriz- says:
ok...
newayz justin i cnnt 4got u vry fast lar...
n im sori i cnnt gv up lar...
n im wil b ur close frn after tiz...
- JuZz - says:
ermmm....yeah
-chriz- says:
u noe y i u ar
- JuZz - says:
ermmm....duno
y ar???
-chriz- says:
coz i feel lonely n i feel i cn share evrytin 2 1 person tat im vry close... i juz nid a n care tats all..
newayz after tiz i proud 2 b ur frn..
ur such a nice person i cnnt 4gt in my life lar
- JuZz - says:
hahahaha
yesa
kk
-chriz- says:
haha
y u laughin
im so serious k...
ok..
newayz dun think i wont disturb u anymore..i wil cl u evrydy n sms u...
u dun mind ryt
- JuZz - says:
ermmmm....
i might nt mind
bt i wnt b answering most of ur calls
-chriz- says:
ermm..ok tat 1 understand lar...
- JuZz - says:
cz i sleep wen u wake up....n i wake up wen u sleep
n most of de time i'll b sleepin o drinkin
-chriz- says:
yeah i noe...
oh yeah...u aso wil deserve a better gurl thn me...
- JuZz - says:
hahahaha
kk.....wateva la
-chriz- says:
bt dun 4gt im here 4 u...
- JuZz - says:
OMG
u ar
-chriz- says:
yeah..no 1 cn change me lar...
hye i gtg lar...
i catch u sum other tym...
i need 2 cook nw...
tc
- JuZz - says:
k
bye..

i feel free after tiz convo...

broken heart :(

after so long...i juz start 2 bloggin is coz of im waitin 4 hiz answer.. n at last i gt it..
it is "NO". i cnnt commit in any relationship for nw...im sori ..tiz is wat does he said 2 me at nite 11 mac..after i propose 2 him about 2 month waitin 4 him, tiz is wat i get...i feel i m dumb!! bt i stil gv up...though my frn all ask me 2 muv on..itz nt a simple things 2 forget a person tat u love d most...anyhw i love him more thn my life..n nw i realise wat is love?? wenever others cm n approach 2 me, i reject them..bt nvr feel their pain.bt nw is my turn 2 feel d pain. Coz of tat i juz wanted c which hurt is more pain? n i tuk blade n cut my hand.bt i stil cnnt stand wif d pain in my heart. im totally down..i cnnt imagine tat i wuz i tiz situation.newayz, i shud thanx 2 all my frn who gv me sum advice n support.newayz i stil love him n i wont do stupid stuff anymur. i stil wanted 2 wait 4 him til he realise hw much i love him. n i noe he wil realise bout tiz 1dy. til tat i wait 4 him...^^

♥ ♥♥♥My 1st poem 4 him♥ ♥♥♥

Instant Messaging ♥

When you come on line to me

A flutter fills my heart;
Your words, like an arrow, pierce my soul

My heart races from the start
From our words back and forth
Flying through the air;
It seems when we’ve been apart

We have much to share.

Thank goodness, there is never a loss for words
You know, when u came on line
I kept on waiting for u to ‘nudge’ me

but it seems u never been do that.

But it still make me happy and I still wanna chat with you,
Most of the time, I keep waiting for the reply,
But sometimes it won’t appear.
And I still move on.

I know it’s hard to said that I love you,
But I’ll been shameless and confess to you.
And I’m still waiting for the answer.
When u will be mine??

We were both young when I first saw you.

I close my eyes and the flashback starts:

I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.

See you make your way through the crowd and say hello;

Little did I know That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,

And my daddy said, Stay away from Juliet.

And I was crying on the staircase, begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said, Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.

I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story -

baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.

We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.

So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,

And my daddy said Stay away from Juliet,

But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'

And I said, Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.

I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.

This love is difficult, but it's real.

Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

I got tired of waiting,

Wondering if you were ever comin' around.

My faith in you was fading When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said, Romeo save me -

I've been feeling so alone.

I keep waiting for you but you never come.

Is this in my head? I don't know what to think

- He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said, Marry me, Juliet.

you'll never have to be alone.

I love you and that's all I really know.

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress;

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh, oh.

We were both young when I first saw you...

i wish i could hv a love like tiz...i love tiz song coz it reali mean me alot...thanx 2 lydia 4 a intro...

i hope justin could do tiz 4 me...lolz..*i think its over*

-chriz- says:hey
-chriz- says:
waddup
- JuZz - says:
hey
- JuZz - says:
hw r u???
-chriz- says:
ermm...im gud...
-chriz- says:
hye my xam fin dy
-chriz- says:
hehe
- JuZz - says:
yesa
- JuZz - says:
hapi la
-chriz- says:
yeah...
-chriz- says:
hye wer is d song list lar
- JuZz - says:
owh yeah
- JuZz - says:
de song list
- JuZz - says:
y u wan la
-chriz- says:
hehe...
-chriz- says:
gt sumting 2 do lar...
-chriz- says:
i will tel u 1nce i get d list..
- JuZz - says:
i seriously malaz la wana type n remember
- JuZz - says:
n i seriously duno wats my fav 10 songz
-chriz- says:
hmm...
-chriz- says:
ok...
-chriz- says:
thn wat type of song u like
- JuZz - says:
ermmm....
- JuZz - says:
any song la
-chriz- says:
specifcaly
- JuZz - says:
any song dat makes me layan
- JuZz - says:
nope
- JuZz - says:
gt no any specifcaly all
-chriz- says:
oh k...
-chriz- says:
hye u like emo song o nt
-chriz- says:
hye u gt listen 2 taylor swift - story o nt
- JuZz - says:
sori....
- JuZz - says:
was tokin on de fon
- JuZz - says:
nope neva heard dat song
-chriz- says:
itz k...
-chriz- says:
u wan o nt i sent 2 u...
- JuZz - says:
wat kinda song iz it???
-chriz- says:
ermm...
-chriz- says:
country
- JuZz - says:
erm....
- JuZz - says:
kk
- JuZz - says:
cn aso
-chriz- says:
ok...
-chriz- sends:

Transfer of "love story.mp3" is complete.

-chriz- says:
hye u like soccer ar
- JuZz - says:
yeah
-chriz- says:
wat is ur fav team
- JuZz - says:
arsenal
-chriz- says:
seriously...
-chriz- says:
ok...
-chriz- says:
hw wuz d song
- JuZz - says:
wait ar
- JuZz - says:
brb
-chriz- says:kk
-chriz- says:
wat r u doin lar...

at the end he nvr appear...

alwiz tiz will happen wen said brb...haha..it nvr make me angry o wat...juz make me laugh wen think about it... du noe wat m i crapping...love him like crazy,til do 4 him alot of things...bt stil waitin a answer...wen tel my frn tat im stil waitin, thy think me a crazy...haiz!!...bt i stil hapy d way tat he treat me...although im less talk 2 him,sms him bt im vry hapi...wen 1nce i chat o talk 2 him,i feel vry hapi & excited..bri noe evrytin bout tiz...haha...

itz alrdy 1month i confess 2 him...quiet coolz!!im stil WAITING!!

d day tat i cnnt 4get...(9/1 -10/1)

9/1(friday)- i kalaii n bri plan 2 go 2 cyber...1st juz wanna lepak wif laura...bt wat happen is kalaii wanted me 2 proposed 2 justin on tat day itself..if nt she wont follow me 2 cyber...so i agree wif her.tat i wil proposed...althought there is almost goin 2 b 6 month tat i like him... so i agree 2 tel him. later on, about 8pm we reach if i nvr tel...kalaii said she wanted 2 tell him..bt i dun wan it 2 happen..so i let him go 1st coz he need 2 stdy...d nex day he gt xam..which is on 10/1...i dun wan 2 hurt kalaii....thn i sms him 2 meet him at d pool is about 10.30pm... thn we chitchat til 1 sumtin in d mornin...ltr on kalaii kept smsin askin me tel him dy o nt...i feel vry hapi after i c him...bt i cnnt tell words that i love him..thn ltr on he said wanna do his revision so ..thn i let him go..so he said he wil meet me again if i nvr sleep early....thn i join again my gang..after tat thy all plan 2 hv thanni....so i agree thn v hvin thanni (kalaii,laura,yani,bri n me)...laura force me 2 swim at mornin which is 2am sumtin...so i aso change cloth n swim wif her...thn i feel damn cold, kalaii n me bck 2 hse n change cloth..bt kalaii stil din leave me...she wanted me 2 tell him b4 leavin cyber...thn she tuk my fon n sms justin asked him cn meet again o nt?? thn he ask me 2cum 2 d shop..so i aso went ter n v talk normal oni,,i stil in nervous...he wuz hvin thanni wif his frn...in sum moment i feel bad coz i disturb him wen he wuz wif his frn...thn he aso intro sum of his frn 2 me...after tat...

jeng...jeng...jeng....

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v started 2 walk thn i start 2 open my mouth...im keep on strugglin n i dun hv words 2 talk...i juz waitin 4 his answer...bt 1 part wen he said tat "wen gt another generation ,his parents doesnt wish 2 hv a son like him" wen he tell tiz i feel so bad, n abit hurt. n of course touchme alot...i wan 2 share evry his burden...i wan be wif him...thn we walk in d rain..hehe...n he talk..he said he need sum tym ...coz after so long he wuz single...he feel shock wen i proposed 2 him...after finish talkin suddenly his fav song wuz play by sum dude near d shop,he kept on tellin tat he love tat song so much...thn he hug me...*actuali i wanted 2 ask him cn i hug him?* bt suddenly he cm n hug me...I <3 him...mayb for other gurl he cn b bad image..bt 4 me he alwiz gud...after i bck 2 my frn they drag me 2 1 place n wanted 2 noe wat happen..bt seriosly i cnnt tell anytin 2 them coz i feel my body emotionally weak n ask them 2 sent me bck 2 room...n they aso sent me...after reach i straight away sleep...d nex mornin i woke up at 7 sumtin n i 4got 2 wish him gud luck 4 his xam...thn i wish him..thn i dun noe wat happen i kept on vomit n til 2dy im nt stable...i dun noe y??? bt i wont GIVE UP!!! i wanted 2 b his part of life...i hope he will understand tiz soon...n i will be waitin 4 u....wat cn i do 4 him...i cnnt express my feeling...i cnnt tel any1 tat im cryin...especially him...i doesnt want he 2 noe im hurtin inside..is love is a false???..bt im still hapi...coz i noe he is nt d guy who like 2 hurt ppl.

My Life is Unpredictable......

christmas n new year 2009...

christmas 2008 is being a enjoyable day 4 me...continously 2days i wuz drunk..n couldnt wake up..moreover i fall in sick b4 i reach hum. then after i c d situation n environment i feel i getting well. and so in christmas mood..futhermore, my hse totaly change frm A 2 Z...all new stuff..i feel im d 1 left behind...coz tiz yr christmas prep none of d thing i do...i oni reach ter on christmas eve. after reach v attend midnite mass @ tampin. i reali enjoy d mass..in contrast, all of them*priest,famili member* kept tellin tat im luk preety on d day...wif my new saree...i love u papa..

christmas eve:me n my bro b4 go 2 church

after cm bck frm church i feel so tired i juz go 2 bed...d nex morning which is christmas day i woke up late in d morning n disturb my mom in d kitchen n later on all of us woke uo v fight 4 d bathroom..later on my dad frn all came at afetrnoon..i wuz screwed up coz i nvr clean d hse,moreover my sis wuz fall in sick...so im d 1 sangkut...haiz!! itz k...i stil enjoy doin it...at christmas nite, i feel tiz year vry simple christmas..most of them are my relative...n i drunk wif my dearest frn lidi...haha...d funny part she cnnt walk bck hum...she gt high!!!...thn i feel normal...v hang out until 3 am ltr all chiao..i went bck 2 my bed....tiz christmas is like fum abit oni...compared than last yr...

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NeW YeAr....

new year pulak...plan alot....bt ntg is happen...i my collgue all plan wanna go 1u 4 lepak...bt wat happen wuz lidi parentz came down...i sangkut!!! cnnt go out....bt most important thing i need 2 go 2 church 4 new year...at last i lidi n checi ended up goin church 4 new year eve...itz quiet interesting...gt countdown...many shows...quiet fun aso....thn came bck hum...bzy smsing all my frn n famili.. non-stop wishin til 3am...i aso fed up...n go 2 bed...ZZZZZZZZ

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