broken heart :(

after so long...i juz start 2 bloggin is coz of im waitin 4 hiz answer.. n at last i gt it..
it is "NO". i cnnt commit in any relationship for nw...im sori ..tiz is wat does he said 2 me at nite 11 mac..after i propose 2 him about 2 month waitin 4 him, tiz is wat i get...i feel i m dumb!! bt i stil gv up...though my frn all ask me 2 muv on..itz nt a simple things 2 forget a person tat u love d most...anyhw i love him more thn my life..n nw i realise wat is love?? wenever others cm n approach 2 me, i reject them..bt nvr feel their pain.bt nw is my turn 2 feel d pain. Coz of tat i juz wanted c which hurt is more pain? n i tuk blade n cut my hand.bt i stil cnnt stand wif d pain in my heart. im totally down..i cnnt imagine tat i wuz i tiz situation.newayz, i shud thanx 2 all my frn who gv me sum advice n support.newayz i stil love him n i wont do stupid stuff anymur. i stil wanted 2 wait 4 him til he realise hw much i love him. n i noe he wil realise bout tiz 1dy. til tat i wait 4 him...^^