vry sad day...

im vry sad 4 lydia...actuali v wanted 2 go church 4 a concert "made in love" bt juz few hours she just cm 2 bri plc 2 hang out n go 2 church ltr...tiz wuz happen n i make her pist...she dun lk smokin..n ter wuz 2 person wuz smokin which is amos n arsh...itz make her face change n luk pale..she cancel 2 go church and she went bck hum..she nvr think bout hw i feel...im seriously down coz of her...i duno hw 2 explain her....although she smoke, as a frn she good 2 us...n i reali would lk 2 appologize 2 u lydia...i duno wad 2 do 2 make u hapi...im sori 2 make u sad and pist...n i aso understand hw u feel.....plz try 2 understnd me...althoght im wif them i will never follow their footsteps...im sorie lydia....i cnnt c ur face so sad...im seriously so sorie..

split it out...

wen last tues i wuz stayin wif bri, i plan 2 spilt eveytin 2 justin..so i juz waited 4 him 2 on9.

guess wad?? he aso on9...so i start d convo normal, which bri start 1st..thn i cont 2 chat...while as usual..thn i tell him dat i cnnt 4get him..guess wad he said...he dun hv d love feelin at all...*damn weirdo*...wen ask him 4 a chance...haha..bt i feel i over do it....bri wuz got pissed aftr she c my face..coz i cry aftr i chat wif him...he seriously dun understnd my feelin...y guyz r like dat???????? i wuz love him mur thn 1 yr *i guess* and im stil luv him alot...he juz scared tat wen i couple up wif him oni thing i cn get is HURT...bt justin truust me o nt ...1dy u wil approach 2 me...mayb itz 2 late 4 me dy...bt i wont hurt u wad u did 2 me...im sorie 2 said!! n bri luv u alot...i hapi 2 get a frn lk u...

the stupid thing is, i did alot of stuff is juz 2 get u...bt u nvr relize wad m i doin o u juz dun gv a damn bout it...its realy hurtin justin...whenever i think bout tiz...

misunderstandin :(

last tuesday i wuz hvin clz till 5..so i plan 2 put up a nite at bri plc...while i wuz takin nap, lydia wuz sms me askin me wheather im cumin bck hum o nt...bt a dy b4 i alrdy inform her tat i wil stayin at bri's plc...i nvr realize she d 1 sms me...coz i wuz vry tired n couldnt woke up 2 reply d msg...thn arnd 7.30 i rply her...bt she rply me damn rude...i duno y?? thn i guess she complain tiz 2 her mum....n her mum tell my mum dat i leave her alone at hum. i duno y she nvr understnd my situation...i wuz vry tired travelin up n down...n guess wad.. she nt talkin 2 me wen i wen bck hum...nt even a 'hi" aso...wad m i suppose 2 do?? i alwiz treat her as my sis...i nvr do bad 2 her...whenevr i cook food 4 me, i aso wil cook 4 her...i nr treat her as my frn...i treat her mur thn a frn...newayz aftr tiz i duno wad 2 tel...i juz move on as usual...i noe itz nt my fault...newayz if my fault aso i would like 2 said sori 2 her...

" im sori lydia"

horrible memories!!

hey HAWT news i got my RESULTS!!!!!

guess wad i fail again!!!!

damn disapointed...

hv 2 do more thn 4 subjects...HAIZ!!