d day tat i cnnt 4get...(9/1 -10/1)

9/1(friday)- i kalaii n bri plan 2 go 2 cyber...1st juz wanna lepak wif laura...bt wat happen is kalaii wanted me 2 proposed 2 justin on tat day itself..if nt she wont follow me 2 cyber...so i agree wif her.tat i wil proposed...althought there is almost goin 2 b 6 month tat i like him... so i agree 2 tel him. later on, about 8pm we reach if i nvr tel...kalaii said she wanted 2 tell him..bt i dun wan it 2 happen..so i let him go 1st coz he need 2 stdy...d nex day he gt xam..which is on 10/1...i dun wan 2 hurt kalaii....thn i sms him 2 meet him at d pool is about 10.30pm... thn we chitchat til 1 sumtin in d mornin...ltr on kalaii kept smsin askin me tel him dy o nt...i feel vry hapi after i c him...bt i cnnt tell words that i love him..thn ltr on he said wanna do his revision so ..thn i let him go..so he said he wil meet me again if i nvr sleep early....thn i join again my gang..after tat thy all plan 2 hv thanni....so i agree thn v hvin thanni (kalaii,laura,yani,bri n me)...laura force me 2 swim at mornin which is 2am sumtin...so i aso change cloth n swim wif her...thn i feel damn cold, kalaii n me bck 2 hse n change cloth..bt kalaii stil din leave me...she wanted me 2 tell him b4 leavin cyber...thn she tuk my fon n sms justin asked him cn meet again o nt?? thn he ask me 2cum 2 d shop..so i aso went ter n v talk normal oni,,i stil in nervous...he wuz hvin thanni wif his frn...in sum moment i feel bad coz i disturb him wen he wuz wif his frn...thn he aso intro sum of his frn 2 me...after tat...

jeng...jeng...jeng....

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v started 2 walk thn i start 2 open my mouth...im keep on strugglin n i dun hv words 2 talk...i juz waitin 4 his answer...bt 1 part wen he said tat "wen gt another generation ,his parents doesnt wish 2 hv a son like him" wen he tell tiz i feel so bad, n abit hurt. n of course touchme alot...i wan 2 share evry his burden...i wan be wif him...thn we walk in d rain..hehe...n he talk..he said he need sum tym ...coz after so long he wuz single...he feel shock wen i proposed 2 him...after finish talkin suddenly his fav song wuz play by sum dude near d shop,he kept on tellin tat he love tat song so much...thn he hug me...*actuali i wanted 2 ask him cn i hug him?* bt suddenly he cm n hug me...I <3 him...mayb for other gurl he cn b bad image..bt 4 me he alwiz gud...after i bck 2 my frn they drag me 2 1 place n wanted 2 noe wat happen..bt seriosly i cnnt tell anytin 2 them coz i feel my body emotionally weak n ask them 2 sent me bck 2 room...n they aso sent me...after reach i straight away sleep...d nex mornin i woke up at 7 sumtin n i 4got 2 wish him gud luck 4 his xam...thn i wish him..thn i dun noe wat happen i kept on vomit n til 2dy im nt stable...i dun noe y??? bt i wont GIVE UP!!! i wanted 2 b his part of life...i hope he will understand tiz soon...n i will be waitin 4 u....wat cn i do 4 him...i cnnt express my feeling...i cnnt tel any1 tat im cryin...especially him...i doesnt want he 2 noe im hurtin inside..is love is a false???..bt im still hapi...coz i noe he is nt d guy who like 2 hurt ppl.

My Life is Unpredictable......

christmas n new year 2009...

christmas 2008 is being a enjoyable day 4 me...continously 2days i wuz drunk..n couldnt wake up..moreover i fall in sick b4 i reach hum. then after i c d situation n environment i feel i getting well. and so in christmas mood..futhermore, my hse totaly change frm A 2 Z...all new stuff..i feel im d 1 left behind...coz tiz yr christmas prep none of d thing i do...i oni reach ter on christmas eve. after reach v attend midnite mass @ tampin. i reali enjoy d mass..in contrast, all of them*priest,famili member* kept tellin tat im luk preety on d day...wif my new saree...i love u papa..

christmas eve:me n my bro b4 go 2 church

after cm bck frm church i feel so tired i juz go 2 bed...d nex morning which is christmas day i woke up late in d morning n disturb my mom in d kitchen n later on all of us woke uo v fight 4 d bathroom..later on my dad frn all came at afetrnoon..i wuz screwed up coz i nvr clean d hse,moreover my sis wuz fall in sick...so im d 1 sangkut...haiz!! itz k...i stil enjoy doin it...at christmas nite, i feel tiz year vry simple christmas..most of them are my relative...n i drunk wif my dearest frn lidi...haha...d funny part she cnnt walk bck hum...she gt high!!!...thn i feel normal...v hang out until 3 am ltr all chiao..i went bck 2 my bed....tiz christmas is like fum abit oni...compared than last yr...

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NeW YeAr....

new year pulak...plan alot....bt ntg is happen...i my collgue all plan wanna go 1u 4 lepak...bt wat happen wuz lidi parentz came down...i sangkut!!! cnnt go out....bt most important thing i need 2 go 2 church 4 new year...at last i lidi n checi ended up goin church 4 new year eve...itz quiet interesting...gt countdown...many shows...quiet fun aso....thn came bck hum...bzy smsing all my frn n famili.. non-stop wishin til 3am...i aso fed up...n go 2 bed...ZZZZZZZZ

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